What a terrible nightmare
January 14, 2010
It's late and I can't seem to fall asleep any sooner than 4 in the morning. You'd think I'd be able to ween myself away from my tour schedule after a month of being home and normal but not yet. When I actually fall asleep, I sleep way longer than I need to be. Sleep is just too good sometimes. I do miss waking up to the sun in my eyes begging me to come outside and play. It's not to often that you'll hear me say that, but for the first time in awhile, I feel that way. This knee surgery has kept me indoors and in bed for 4 weeks now (2 weeks left until I'm healed). It's also allowed my schedule to be the way it is. I find myself on my computer all day long almost channel surfing; flipping through the same websites over and over. Myspace, Facebook, Yahoo, Twitter, Strikegently, Absolutepunk, Youtube. Over and over again, I repeat that cycle until I can't take it anymore. Lately since I finished Dexter 1-4, True Blood has somehow caught my attention. It's still hard to get into being that the acting is pretty womp womp womp. Yet again, anything that'll break that cycle I'll say yes to right now. The girl leaves me tomorrow. That's just one more thing to be sad about. It's hard having something and letting it go so you can continue on with your real life. It's definitely the hardest part about being in a band. Sorry to be sappy, but I know it's not to often that you get a chance to read about the life of a guy in a band you like. I wish I had that opportunity when I was growing up loving music. Being in a band is amazing, don't get me wrong but it does have it's ups and downs. I'm gonna miss her. More than anyone could ever know.
If this is a dream, please wake me up
Jake